I must admit

I am ashamed by my

unwillingness to forgive

the ones who

have hurt me.

I must admit

I would rather they

suffer for all

the pain they’ve

inflicted on me.

I must admit

I am miserable.

This unforgiveness

robs me of joy,

hope,

compassion,

mercy.

I must admit

I am sick of living

in this sea

of past misdeeds done

to me.

I must admit

I am drowning.

I must admit

time has come

to release.

Forgive.

Be free.

I must admit

I cannot do this alone.

I must admit

I need God

To grant me

The ability to say

What come is so hard express:

“I forgive you.”